I have died every day waiting for you

[lovelikeyou]

[That was, in Rose's opinion, even worse than last week. Any loss of life is an awful waste, but for it all to come of some horrible accident...

This week, she doesn't retreat back to her room. She knows now that the people here, or at least enough of them, like to gather after these experiences. Many of the Crystal Gems were the same way; she remembers their post-battle huddles well. It's not a party, really, but...it's good to be together. To have friends around. Maybe, to remember those who were lost.

So this time, she'll go to the cafeteria herself and request some food for everyone. It's just basic snacks, the kind of human food she knows well enough to ask for. There's some hot chocolate provided, too. She definitely knows people enjoy that. It doesn't take too long, since she isn't making most of it, and then she goes to invite everybody she can find.

She doesn't slip any notes underneath doors, for the people she doesn't happen across. Some Crystal Gems didn't join the groups, or maybe did after one battle but not another. Sometimes they wanted to be alone. She never really understood that...but it wasn't her place to tell them otherwise. Weren't they all about freedom?

Everybody probably knows something like this is going to happen again, anyway. It's their choice to come.]

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[hardnosed]

[ Whether she was invited or not, Jasper takes a good long while to put in an appearance. She heads to Alice's room before anything else — not a tall order, as it's right next to hers — and finds nothing that makes her feel any different. Back in her own quarters, she picks up the bow tie from yesterday, gives it a hard stare, and flings it across the room, where it bounces lamely off the window. And with that, it's time for one of her favorite activities: walking around in a foul mood.

She gives the chapel a cursory look-see, which is just as pointless as Alice's room was and does nothing to quiet the inexplicable restless energy currently surging within her. After some more pacing, she ends up at, shock of shocks, the gym, where you can find her beating the absolute hell out of a punching bag. She knows there's a gathering going on, because there must be. Someone's taken it on as a task after they all got back, probably reasoning that it's what she would have wanted. A few hours ago, she was talking about having a "real party", knowing full well that as soon as they saw through her, she was going to die. Jasper uses the word "worthless" so often it means practically nothing, but this, this whole stupid day and all the lies and all the arguments of who's undead and who's hypocritical, qualifies. She's not completely unaware of her surroundings during this, though she's certainly intense about what she's doing and more than willing to completely ignore anyone who shows up — at least until she takes a pause in her endless salvo of punches and kicks to address them. How does it look like she's sweating when she has no pores and her entire stupid body is made of light... ]

What do you want?

[ That said, she does eventually show up at the cafeteria. Once she's there, she doesn't really know what to do there... so she grabs a cup of tea (it's hot chocolate, all hot drinks are going to be tea to her for the foreseeable future) and just sits by herself, warming her huge hands and glowering into its depths. The chairs are so uncomfortable, and she's got nothing to say and no reason to feel anything other than irritation, but she's around. Maybe that counts for something. Probably it doesn't. ]