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unknownseas2020-04-25 04:00 pm
lovelikeyou) wrote in unknownseas2020-04-25 04:00 pm
I have died every day waiting for you
[That was, in Rose's opinion, even worse than last week. Any loss of life is an awful waste, but for it all to come of some horrible accident...
This week, she doesn't retreat back to her room. She knows now that the people here, or at least enough of them, like to gather after these experiences. Many of the Crystal Gems were the same way; she remembers their post-battle huddles well. It's not a party, really, but...it's good to be together. To have friends around. Maybe, to remember those who were lost.
So this time, she'll go to the cafeteria herself and request some food for everyone. It's just basic snacks, the kind of human food she knows well enough to ask for. There's some hot chocolate provided, too. She definitely knows people enjoy that. It doesn't take too long, since she isn't making most of it, and then she goes to invite everybody she can find.
She doesn't slip any notes underneath doors, for the people she doesn't happen across. Some Crystal Gems didn't join the groups, or maybe did after one battle but not another. Sometimes they wanted to be alone. She never really understood that...but it wasn't her place to tell them otherwise. Weren't they all about freedom?
Everybody probably knows something like this is going to happen again, anyway. It's their choice to come.]
This week, she doesn't retreat back to her room. She knows now that the people here, or at least enough of them, like to gather after these experiences. Many of the Crystal Gems were the same way; she remembers their post-battle huddles well. It's not a party, really, but...it's good to be together. To have friends around. Maybe, to remember those who were lost.
So this time, she'll go to the cafeteria herself and request some food for everyone. It's just basic snacks, the kind of human food she knows well enough to ask for. There's some hot chocolate provided, too. She definitely knows people enjoy that. It doesn't take too long, since she isn't making most of it, and then she goes to invite everybody she can find.
She doesn't slip any notes underneath doors, for the people she doesn't happen across. Some Crystal Gems didn't join the groups, or maybe did after one battle but not another. Sometimes they wanted to be alone. She never really understood that...but it wasn't her place to tell them otherwise. Weren't they all about freedom?
Everybody probably knows something like this is going to happen again, anyway. It's their choice to come.]
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Della slowly nods. ]
...I understand. After all that... After going through hell, you're not going to let anyone else kill you here.
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[Again, he seems to be trying to regain some semblance of control over himself, at least.]
I'll deal with it, it's fine. It's just been a lot, I guess. I can't...really let anything happen.
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[ Just...as a reminder. ]
...That's why it doesn't feel like a choice, to... If it's me, or someone else. ...Even though I wanted to save Alice. It wasn't a choice. It was what I had to do.
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[...]
It's natural to do that in here, I guess. It's just kind of been getting to my head a bit. Overthinking, like I said.
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[ This has all been a very enlightening conversation, huh? ]
...Why do you think I offered to spitball? When you're stuck alone in your own head for...awhile, it can drive anyone, uh...a little crazy. Speaking from experience.