I have died every day waiting for you

[lovelikeyou]

[That was, in Rose's opinion, even worse than last week. Any loss of life is an awful waste, but for it all to come of some horrible accident...

This week, she doesn't retreat back to her room. She knows now that the people here, or at least enough of them, like to gather after these experiences. Many of the Crystal Gems were the same way; she remembers their post-battle huddles well. It's not a party, really, but...it's good to be together. To have friends around. Maybe, to remember those who were lost.

So this time, she'll go to the cafeteria herself and request some food for everyone. It's just basic snacks, the kind of human food she knows well enough to ask for. There's some hot chocolate provided, too. She definitely knows people enjoy that. It doesn't take too long, since she isn't making most of it, and then she goes to invite everybody she can find.

She doesn't slip any notes underneath doors, for the people she doesn't happen across. Some Crystal Gems didn't join the groups, or maybe did after one battle but not another. Sometimes they wanted to be alone. She never really understood that...but it wasn't her place to tell them otherwise. Weren't they all about freedom?

Everybody probably knows something like this is going to happen again, anyway. It's their choice to come.]

Comments

[bogwife]

Yes, that's it exactly! And then you start over and figure out what you were trying to get at and then an urge to do something else hits you because what you're doing isn't what you want to be doing anymore and you just feel like you're being pulled in ten different directions.

It's the worst.

[reallyhatesharks]

[She laughs, even though it's a little strained.]

Pretty much. It's happened to me a lot, especially when I'm trying to avoid things I don't want to think about. I've kind of gotten used to it? But it's not fun to figure out how to deal with all the trauma.