I tried to get through to you

[archboxer]

[You know what that was? A fiasco. That was an utter fiasco. Three more people gone on a chance that may not happen! This is horrible. Even if some people dislike her, Rhea... is up to the challenge once more. This time she does it nearly herself: writing out the invitations, ordering the food and telling everyone to meet at the bar. In Ema's honor, of course.

She hands out the invitations herself and if she can't find you, she'll slide yours under your door.]

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[nothingcanstop]

But you'll never know if you don't try.

[blackmass]

And if you fail, would you regret it so badly as to go back and try again?

[nothingcanstop]

Is it inherently wrong, to want to get it right?

[blackmass]

I can not decide what is or is not inherently wrong.

[nothingcanstop]

But what do you think?

[blackmass]

That is what I think. I know what is deemed 'good' and 'evil' respectively, but I can not claim to know that saving or not saving people in this hypothetical would be either.

[nothingcanstop]

...Does that bother you? To not know, to just ask questions?

[blackmass]

[oh jesus literal christ della you had to say it like that, here he goes]

Does it bother me...? Would it not bother you, to ask questions of the world and be left to seek answers yourself?

[nothingcanstop]

[ HERE HE FUCKIN GOES, STRAP IN DELLA, ALL YOU WANTED TO DO WAS DELIVER A STUPID BIRTHDAY PRESENT ]

...Maybe. I...seek answers with everything, though. That's what comes with being an explorer. Sometimes, I never find the answers, but...I think life's about the journey, too.

[blackmass]

If one possesses a question, then one should ask it, and ask again and again until an answer is found. That much should go without saying. The journey taken to find an answer, too, has meaning in itself.

But what happens if that answer can not be found?

[nothingcanstop]

Well... Sometimes, the answer just...can't be found. I think it's okay to make your own, in that case, with what you've learned and experienced.

[blackmass]

...Unacceptable. In some cases, an answer has to be pursued and discovered, even should it seem impossible to find. The alternative would be maddening beyond comprehension.

[nothingcanstop]

Well...sure, you can pursue it. But you can't spend your whole life revolved around it.

[blackmass]

Oh...? Not even if the question being asked is at the very core of one's life to begin with?

[nothingcanstop]

What...kind of question...?

[blackmass]

...

[What, indeed.]

It's nothing you need concern yourself with.

[nothingcanstop]

...That's too far? Too much for tonight?

[blackmass]

I wasn't aware I gave off the impression of someone willing to share their secrets. Least of all in a place like this where they might be used against us all.

[nothingcanstop]

Well, we seemed to be having a...if not lovely, enriching conversation. It's the first time I've really felt I could start to...well, get to know you.

[blackmass]

Now, there's no need to go to such effort.

[Which was said...about as casually as most things Kirei said, even the more alarming things like talking about corpses in shark tanks.]

You can't understand me.

[nothingcanstop]

[ It's been a ridiculously long day and Della is Tired. But, she still cocks her head to the side, sizes him up, and just says: ]

Maybe not. But there's no reason not to try, now, is there?

[blackmass]

There are many reasons not to, in fact. One may not wish to examine some things too closely, lest they find themselves unable to face up to the discovery.

[nothingcanstop]

For some people, I guess. But, I'm not really one of them.