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unknownseas2021-02-06 04:50 pm
dokkalfheimr) wrote in unknownseas2021-02-06 04:50 pm
And we're all adrift together through the cold mist, 'til we're lifeless together
[The preparations hit differently this time.
Last weekend was at least an attempt at being festive, even with the light supplies they have; at being joyous, at giving people at least one nice thing to look back upon before things inevitably took a turn for the worse. And now two people are dead, and instead of trying to figure out structure placement and how best to keep everyone entertained and occupied and well-fed, the preparations now are given to much more practical purposes.
Large amounts of bottled water from the machine. Bagels and bread and muffins, light starchy things to avoid forcing anyone to keep meat or seafood down after seeing a corpse. Fruit for the sake of providing energy. Avoiding including bananas for any reason. Quietly pulling aside one of the first people she sees with any experience in the matter and asking them to help her make tea.
Once she's got one of the tables at the party zone set up and the tea is on its way to being prepared, she'll set around letting people know; the invitations are simple, written in Freyja's broad, elegant handwriting:
I think another gathering tonight would be beneficial. Not to celebrate, but to remember; perhaps more importantly, to ensure that no one is alone if they don't want to be.
Tonight is hard. There is nothing further to do but get through it.]
Last weekend was at least an attempt at being festive, even with the light supplies they have; at being joyous, at giving people at least one nice thing to look back upon before things inevitably took a turn for the worse. And now two people are dead, and instead of trying to figure out structure placement and how best to keep everyone entertained and occupied and well-fed, the preparations now are given to much more practical purposes.
Large amounts of bottled water from the machine. Bagels and bread and muffins, light starchy things to avoid forcing anyone to keep meat or seafood down after seeing a corpse. Fruit for the sake of providing energy. Avoiding including bananas for any reason. Quietly pulling aside one of the first people she sees with any experience in the matter and asking them to help her make tea.
Once she's got one of the tables at the party zone set up and the tea is on its way to being prepared, she'll set around letting people know; the invitations are simple, written in Freyja's broad, elegant handwriting:
I think another gathering tonight would be beneficial. Not to celebrate, but to remember; perhaps more importantly, to ensure that no one is alone if they don't want to be.
Tonight is hard. There is nothing further to do but get through it.]
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Sorry, it's not like me to get all depressing for long. I mean...I admit I have been through some rough things? But every time I just let it hit me for a while and then I try to just leave it all behind. I just find it easier than being sad for long, so I can go on and try to put some good back into the world.
[That probably is why he can roll with the punches. Despite everything, he really is a really stable person in many ways, but, well...]
...until there's something you just can't stop thinking about even if you go on with your life. You see, I...well...I have these two friends. I know where they are, even though officially it's said they went missing. I can't go into much detail, but they...
[Filbo tries to find the right words without breaking the decision to keep the events of Snaktooth Island a secret. He wants to talk about them! But they're a secret for many reasons, among them that talking about it hurts. Boy, if the vending machines decides to break the secret and unleash Bugsnax on the ship he just will have to, hah]
...they made it possible for me and others to go on with our lives. Even though they wouldn't be able to. Since five months ago they have been trapped in a remote island, and even though I know they were prepared for it, I...I wanted to think they're still there, alive and kicking. That even though nothing could be done to help them now, they're still alive.
Even if it's just so I...I s-stop feeling guilty about...about them staying behind.
[After five months he still wants to think they have managed to survive for that long, but Filbo knows too well everything is stacked against those two. He just kept telling himself they surely were fine, and that somehow they were doing well.
Knowing that Shard and Carmen wouldn't go home, wouldn't their loved ones want that for themselves too? To believe Shard and Carmen were somewhere else, alive and kicking? If what works for Filbo is good, then it's good for those two's loved ones, but there comes Chloe, apparently saying it's not as kind as he thought. Was he just...thinking that because it's the easiest thing to do, instead of it being the right thing?]
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I got this problem. Thinkin' I've got a...monopoly, on pain. [ Another puff, breathing in, exhaling. ] I'm sorry, about your friends. I... If that works for you, good. But...it won't for everyone. It doesn't.
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...healthy?
[Is it healthy to be lying to yourself just to be making yourself feel better? He doesn't know]
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Healthy? Trust me, I don't know fuck or shit about what's healthy.
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[Oh well. That's life. Filbo stares at the ocean below them, a bit awkward]
...well, I guess I have a lot of time ahead to try to make some sense out of all this. I already spent too many days feeling sorry about myself, it's about time I stop doing that.
[Easier said than done! But he's going to try, that's for sure. Not going to forget Chloe's harsh words, though, that was...quite something]
Oh, before I forget! I talked to Davy Jones. Turns out you were right, he really isn't so bad!
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No, it’s fine. ]
Oh. Yeah? Well...good. [ What Davy Jones said is causing her an amount of grief, but... No, it’s fine. ] Just don’t piss him off and...he seems like a chill dude.
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[It really may be hard to imagine Filbo drunk]
cw: underage drinking references
Yeah, no, you're definitely hella straight-laced. Leave the drinking to us pros.
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[Just keep the Marlot away, thanks, hah! But yeah, at least he's acquaintances with booze, even though he probably doesn't get drunk all that often]
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[ Ah, hedonism! That's a much better conversation topic! ]
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[Party concoctions, really. You can't have a good party without 'liquid courage', haha!]
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[Filbo laughs]
But if you ever get something stronger I'd give it a try. Just don't think too badly of me if I make faces the first time.
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[It probably will be hilarious for a person and that person likely won't be Filbo, hah]
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[ Filbo does not deserve this and I will say it a thousand times. ]
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That's what I wanted to hear!
[Filbo leans away from the railing. It's getting late, there's a gathering to attend...he can't go sulking around for long. That's just not in his nature! But still...]
I hope you're feeling a little better. As for me, uh...I'll...I'll think about everything you said. I know maybe you're regretting saying all that, but I'm not gonna dismiss it. Don't be sorry, alright?
[He really will give it a lot of thought. Chloe has no idea of the profound effect she had on him, hah.
Gotta go, Chloe! See you!]
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[ How weird... She said something helpful? Huh. ]
See you 'round.