I have died every day waiting for you

[lovelikeyou]

[That was, in Rose's opinion, even worse than last week. Any loss of life is an awful waste, but for it all to come of some horrible accident...

This week, she doesn't retreat back to her room. She knows now that the people here, or at least enough of them, like to gather after these experiences. Many of the Crystal Gems were the same way; she remembers their post-battle huddles well. It's not a party, really, but...it's good to be together. To have friends around. Maybe, to remember those who were lost.

So this time, she'll go to the cafeteria herself and request some food for everyone. It's just basic snacks, the kind of human food she knows well enough to ask for. There's some hot chocolate provided, too. She definitely knows people enjoy that. It doesn't take too long, since she isn't making most of it, and then she goes to invite everybody she can find.

She doesn't slip any notes underneath doors, for the people she doesn't happen across. Some Crystal Gems didn't join the groups, or maybe did after one battle but not another. Sometimes they wanted to be alone. She never really understood that...but it wasn't her place to tell them otherwise. Weren't they all about freedom?

Everybody probably knows something like this is going to happen again, anyway. It's their choice to come.]

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[drladysounds]

[Hmmm..this guy is a priest, isn't he? Maaaaaybe he's the kind of person she needs to talk with]

Excuse me? Father? Are you willing to give advice in this place?

[blackmass]

Certainly. I would be a poor man of God indeed were I to turn anyone away, especially under such circumstances.

[kirei, why are you like this]

[drladysounds]

[Shelley can't remember the last time she went to a confession, she hopes to remember how it's supposed to be done. Shelley sits down, contrite]

O, Father, I have sinned with sloth.

[...she guesses? It's either that or lust, but she doesn't feel particularly sorry about the lust]

Two weeks ago I was accused of not taking this place seriously. I was, it's just that I wasn't as worried as maybe I should have been and also I was just sitting around to see what would happen. Now I'm maybe more worried than I should be, but it's not like that has helped me do anything useful. Nothing I try seems to be helpful.

[Like...she has had plans, and tried them. None of them worked]

And now I'm lost. What am I supposed to do if trying gave no results?

1/2

[blackmass]

[The look on Kirei's face couldn't have more clearly spelled 'oh wow, you're actually serious about this' if he tried.]

[blackmass]

[Damn. Okay, uh. Guess he has to do his job.]

There is, I think, a marked difference between sloth and patience. I myself find I have opted for the latter; with little of note available to us, there is not much else to do but wait for opportunity to present itself.

[drladysounds]

[I'm so sorry, Kirei, Shelley has terrible judgment when it's about people, haha. She plays Scrabble with people holding her captive and spends a month lollygagging around in their evil bases]

So I should instead be waiting for the right chance? Even though it may never come?

[blackmass]

We haven't many options at hand, so far as I've noticed.

[so, 'what ELSE are we gonna do']

[drladysounds]

Maybe, but everyone says if you keep trying sooner or later a path opens. It just doesn't come in the way you expect.

[Sometimes by sheer luck, really]